the middle

i love that song by jimmy eat world...its a feel good song...every time i hear it i have to smile

Hey,
Don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out,
Or looked down on.
Just try your best,
Try everything you can.
And don't you worry what they tell themselves
When you're away.

[Chorus]
It just takes some time,
Little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything, everything will be just fine,
Everything, everything will be alright. (alright)

Hey,
You know they're all the same.
You know you're doing better on your own, (on your own)
So don't buy in.
Live right now.
Yeah, just be yourself.
It doesn't matter if it's good enough (good enough)
For someone else.

[Chorus x2]

Hey, don't write yourself off yet.
It's only in your head you feel left out, (feel left out)
Or looked down on.
Just do your best, (just do your best)
Do everything you can. (do everything you can)
And don't you worry what their bitter hearts (bitter hearts)
Are gonna say.

[Chorus x2]

but my UTI came back...more doctor and pills...

i just got contacts on wednesday and i should also have some new glasses on the 24th...theyre my normal black chunky frames but on the inside theyre tiger stripe and the yellow/orange kinda brings attention to my eyes...
the contacts...im still not quite used to em...i think they dry my eyes out...

eh...im goin to bed

UTI

ew...so i have a urinary tract infection...miserable...i feel like i have to pee 24/7 and its maddening...wen the urge gets to be too much i go...theres a delay then a few drops then pain that makes my eyes water...and a bit of blood...i feel icky...i was up last night for the better part of the night and i wanted to go to work but i just couldnt handle it...thank gosh i wore a pantiliner cuz oi...the urge is terrible...so i worked for 22 mins and was like i cant friggin function...and i was supposed to go to the doc at 3 but micah called and got me in at 9...kinda sucks havin to go in and have a doctor tell me that i had a uti when i was pretty darn sure that was it...but shes the only one that can get me meds...there went $140...too bad we dont have insurance...antibiotics and some pill she said would help alot...and it hasnt...she said the urge would be less and the pain should be gone...urge has maybe gone down a little but theres still pretty much pain everytime...and my pee looks like orange food coloring or easter egg dye cuz the meds lol

i never want a uti again...i want to pee like a normal person...

words are all that we have left

so this saturday is micah n i's first anniversary...pretty cool...feels like we've been together forever but then again feels like we havent been together very long...its all good

but here's some fav quotes of mine

"Be who you are and say what you feel because those that mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind."
~Dr. Seuss
“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!”
~Dr. Seuss
"You're in pretty good shape for the shape you are in."
~Dr. Seuss
“All alone!
Whether you like it or not,
alone is something you'll
be quite a lot”
~Dr. Seuss
"I'm afraid sometimes
you'll play lonely games too,
games you can't win
because you'll play against you"
~Dr. Seuss
"I'm sorry to say
so but, sadly it's true
that bang-ups and hang-ups
can happen to you"
~Dr. Seuss

"I know that I am intelligent because I know that I know nothing."
~Socrates
"He who is not content with what he has would not be contented with what he would like to have"
~Socrates
"The right way to begin is to pay attention to the young, and make them just as good as possible"
~Socrates

"Happiness depends upon ourselves"
~Aristotle

"Laws alone can not secure freedom of expression; in order that every man present his views without penalty there must be spirit of tolerance in the entire population."
~Albert Einstein
"My religion consists of a humble admiration of the illimitable superior spirit who reveals himself in the slight details we are able to perceive with our frail and feeble mind"
~Albert Einstein

"In truth, there was only one Christian, and he died on the cross"
~Nietzsche

"Always acknowledge a fault. This will throw those in authority off their guard and give you an opportunity to commit more"
~Mark Twain
"Do something every day that you don't want to do; this is the golden rule for acquiring the habit of doing your duty without pain"
~Mark Twain


Ok I could go on all day quoting brilliant people but it's not gonna make me brilliant, what i gotta do is go on with my own life and try to be a little better everyday

got my hair cut

i like short hair...its easier to manage...uses less shampoo...easier to style...sometimes...and it dries faster...none of that blow dry bull...

great clips is havin a hair cut sale...6 bucks fer a hair cut so i decided to go in today...and i got it chopped off...it was quick inexpensive and the chick that did it was really nice and did a good job...id say from the time i walked in to the time i walked out it had maybe only been 20 mins-half hour...they were pretty busy too...

heres my hair

my mommys request

so my mommy wanted pics of me n micah...so i took some pics just a few mins ago...

so i was flashing away and he decided it would be fun to try to scare me...well i was startled...and this came out

and the laughter afterwards

goons...i swear

and i never got what was with sudoku...lame...who wants to do math in their free time? a math puzzle nonetheless...

what a wierdo...but hes cute...

night!

new additions for mah family

sooooooo...

...

...

no i'm not pregnant...

lol...

but micah finally broke down and we has some lil pets!!!

splinter-named after the rat in teenage mutant ninja turtles...of course...shes a little girl...


but rats are social creatures...and i wouldnt want to deprive her of living with her own species the rest of her short life(life span 2-5yrs and depends on a few variables)
and theyre more social when they have a cagemate, happier, and can have longer life spans soooo

intoducing gaz like a week later


shes named after a cartoon character from invader zim...and shes a little girl too...same sex pairs is one rule for owning rats

heres their little house



<3

they have such different personalities...splinter like to be a little acrobat...but her balance isnt the best balance ive seen in rodents...shes a little mad woman...gaz...well we havent had her as long so a little more time will tell...but for the most part shes a fatty...she loves food...shes more calm...i think shes gonna be bigger than splinter...i love them both

<3

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